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Everyone has gone for kenduri today so I had to have something for the night meal. I made this soup with oyster mushroom. Put one beef seasoning cube (Tesco brand, which I bought yesterday) into boiled water and a little salt. Done. A great 2 minute soup, especially when you’re not bothered to cook a proper meal. Ado used to make this same lazy soup, which we ate with Domino’s pizzas. Oh now I miss Domino’s, too bad we don’t have it here in KB.

Hmm. I know this looks like a clever excuse for me to talk about Ado. But no, really, I was meaning to talk about the soup. But okay, I also have a few things to write about Ado, apart from the soup I had with Ado.

It started last month actually but I didn’t want to talk about it earlier as I was too sad. I know he’s busy but he could have called me, so I wouldn’t waste my time waiting and hoping for nothing (hell I knew I shouldn’t, but still..) and how you feel if your 3 sms being ignored just like that?? I can’t even see him as a friend with that attitude, let alone a boyfriend. Bleh! My next boyfriend should be someone who’s not too busy and still have time to call me especially when I really need him to!

Hence my turn to ignore his sms last time, and 2 days ago he called me (I know he only bothers to call when he has a favor to ask – like phone software or something), which I ignored, too. Though I was actually dying to hear his voice, but wth, even I can have that ego. And I sent him short message telling him not to sms and call me again.

I know he doesn’t think I was serious when I said that, and last night we started this nice arguments when he started asking “Why? What happened? etc”.. Oh, so you’re surprised? I told everything I have been meaning to tell. OK, I know I shouldn’t expect him to be free on a particular day, but all I was upset about was for him not responding to my messages when I was urgently expecting! And I am not surprised when he never apologizes, rather tries his best to give so many clever reasons that somehow make it turns to look like I was the one who’s wrong afterall. Alright, alright, go and live with your reasons now. I no longer care. And I was positive that I don’t want to have a friend like him.

Geez, and he asks “is this the way you ‘break’ nicely?” and sounds like it’s my blame for the breakup that I wanted and now I am complaining this and that. Diss the breakup. I see nothing much difference before or after the so-called breakup. He’s still being nice at times, and turns to be jerk at other times. Still the same as before. The only difference to me is that I have managed to tell myself not to contact him often anymore. And it works (and I am happy about it). Now I really don’t know even I want to keep in touch with him, so forget the idea to reunite again as lovers (or whatever) in the future. I will not be back to him even though it was me to broke it last time (and it wasn’t because I really wanted to!*sigh*), unless it’s him who will try to make us together again one day. Why, I think I have done my part, now his turn. If he can’t figure out how and when, then he’s definitely a useless man I dont want to waste my time hoping for.