Hello stranger! :)

5 April 2009 at 7:26 pm (Blogging)

Because I don’t have certain readers coming to this blog.

So sometimes it’s fun to see the stats checking what makes them coming here.. mostly from Postcrossing forum, Google results for random companies and interview and apartment rental searches, and lately searches on Hajj pilgrims as well (haha, I’m flattered, though I know I didn’t write about it that nice *blush* and still want to write some more but hmm I am lazy).. 

And it’s sometimes thrilling to see if they check the blog further.. and what page, etc haha. And where they are from :) See, you’re stalking me and I’m stalking you back! :P

But today I was more than amazed to find out someone who was trapped here when googling for a company interview maybe, proceeded for next 2-3 hours to read every page of one whole year I had written here, from March last year until yesterday. I have had some people read quite alot, but this particular reader has read every single page spanning one year. Though I am not sure every post. 

What do I feel? Of course I know I am such a boring girl with a sappy life, nothing exciting to write about, except for whining over job when I had one, and ranting over boyfriend when I had one, as well as when I had none either, interviews, job preparation, convocation preparation, postcards and toys, love crisis, a messy room, and… nothing much else. Yikes, what a boring life. So I can’t help being embarassed to know someone really reads my sappy life stories.. agh. *hides face*

Look. If I were a reader, and came across a blog like this, I’d simply go “what the hell are these craps??” and leave. HAHAHA.

So I can’t help wondering what this secret reader really had in his/her mind that he/she managed to browse that much. It’s a pity that he/she didn’t leave any comment or message…… which I would really love one. Please, if you happen to come back and read this, please leave comment or email me, okay? At least I want to be your friend :)) You know many things about me now so I’d like to know about you as well, does it sound fair enough?? :)

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Busy.. sort of

12 March 2009 at 10:14 pm (Blogging, Whatever)

I dont feel like writing here lately… I don’t know why. I feel bad for previous posts which have obviously pictured me as a bad girl. Nevermind. I am bad, if you must know. I really can’t understand the fact that I really could get mad until that point I would curse someone to hell. Needless to say it was the same someone I used to give all my love to. I don’t hate anyone as much as I hate him, as much as I never love anyone as much I loved him. It’s so unfunny to realize that this love-hate relationship is still going regardless you’re already separated and never think of being together again. It’s just a matter of staying friends.. but staying friends my ass, I don’t need a friend who knows very well to hurt a friend. Regardless who did the mistake. Well, yes, my mistake indeed. For being too nice and forgiving. 

This post is disgusting, I wish I don’t have to write such rants here. I wanted to write about many nice things instead, put nice photos. I still have some batch of photos and stories I wanted to write about the Hajj trip, but I don’t seem to have a neat and pure mind for it. Same goes to the postcards blog. I have a bunch of cards I already have in my mind to put into the blog, then again they seem to be under pending work. 

On the side note, I have joined a couple of penpals blogging groups, where 5 to 6 people could write “letters” in a private blog. It’s such a great way to make new circle of friends. I am really really in need of some at the moment.

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Guess what I have been up to?

28 January 2009 at 2:06 pm (Blogging, Postcrossing)

imajication

Okay, don’t judge me please, but finally I didn’t delete imajication.wordpress.com. But have successfully transformed it into a postcards blog yay :D *happy sigh* Perhaps this is an obvious proof that I really have nothing else to do at the moment. Anyways. Go and have a look there! And leave comment!

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OK, my name is ilyani

13 January 2009 at 4:56 pm (Blogging)

Did you know? WordPress import and export tool is the second most brilliant thing I have found today after white chocolate. YUM.

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ahhhhhhh i am nuts

13 January 2009 at 4:44 pm (Blogging)

Hey you who read this craps of me for whatever reason. I’m moving back to write at ilyani.wordpress.com again. There’s NO NO NO reason for me to leave my own pretty name domain just because of few certain posts and categories I dont intend to keep anymore. I can simply delete them and ta-daaaaaaa :) they will be GONE! <3

Umm and actually, it’s been quite a mess for this WordPress page ever since imajication, at least to me, as if I’m keeping two blogs haih I’m so lazy for that lah.

see yeh!

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Which ilyani are you looking for?

30 May 2008 at 12:06 pm (Blogging)

Everytime I see the WordPress stat page, I can’t help but feel a little paranoid that there are people somewhere searching for ”ilyani” or “ilyani wordpress” or “ilyani blog” over the search engines. Which ilyani are you really looking for actually? There are maybe hundreds more ilyanis in Malaysia. It’s not me, is it? Then again if it’s not me, why do you (and you, you and you) keep coming ocassionally to read my unfunny miserable life stories but keep silent and never say something to make me feel better?? You are so unfriendly! :-(

Hmph. There I go again. I know I shouldn’t be bothered about my readers when I never expect anyone to read this. Heh. Still it’s annoying me, I just don’t know why. Anyways. I just don’t wish people who come across here happen to be the people at work!

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My readers?

26 April 2008 at 2:26 am (Blogging, I got a job!!)

Sometimes I’m just surprised that this blog really has got readers. Yes, YOU! (if you’re reading this, then you’re this blog’s reader, aren’t you? Heh). Okay I mean, I am no writer, politician, celebrity or popular person whom people are keen to know my updates or love affairs HAHA. Neither I belong to a group of friends who’re blogging, and in fact I don’t have too many friends to begin with. I just write my so-called daily notes who are rather boring I can say, with another intention to getting used to English. And as far as I know, I don’t put my blog link in anywhere on the internet except in Postcrossing forum, because they’re the closest online community to me so I don’t mind if they come to read my silly writings by chance sometimes. If they’re interested, anyway. And I guess a couple of friends do have a peek on here once in a while too, hehe. Other than that people who come across here are mostly led by search engines when they’re looking for some information like company profiles and interviews (as lately I have been writing about my interview calls, interviews experience, including the company name right on the subject title) so HAHA I can’t help feeling sorry that how often this blog traps these poor visitors who are actually looking for a more useful information rather than craps I write here :P

Oh yes, in case you’re wondering how I know these, WordPress & Statcounter give me information about the blog visitors, though it’s not fully working.

But lately I feel blessed that some of these unexpected readers could be useful to me. I once got a reader who happened to be somebody in Jobstreet when I was going to attend its Career fair and he offered me to see him there for some jobhunting tips. (Though when I was actually there I & Lenya were so busy in the crowd I didn’t have time to find him). I have also, by chance, found a new lovely friend who can teach me Bosnian. And the other day I have received an email from someone in IRIS. No, not IRIS HR, but someone who works in there and he emailed me after he read here that I’m gonna be in IRIS soon.. just to say welcome and offering help. Wow, so I straightaway asked.. what to prepare? How’s the office like? The department and stuff. Well, who would have thought that I would meet a colleague even before I work there? :-)

So yeah, I am glad this silly blog somehow gives me a chance to meet nice people out there!

Anyway, my readers, whoever you are and wherever you’re from, and whatever reason you’re here (trapped or otherwise, hehe), I have to thank you for your time to visit me. Be free to leave comment, or just say hello, that will make me really happy! Hugs!

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My blogging history..

18 March 2008 at 2:38 am (Blogging)

Today I have done the most quirkest thing. I have digged out Google and old email accounts to find potential spots I ever left an old blog/journal/diary online. There must have been a number of them, though I am not sure how many exactly. As far as I can remember I started having a blog sometime in 2002, with initial intention to improve my English language, as my English teacher in UIA PJ Ms Catherine suggested us to. However, my discipline towards blogging back then was rather hopeless:

1- I wrote a few posts in a blog, and jumped to register another blog somewhere else whenever I found it nicer

2- Never kept the blog updated

3- I strangely had bad feelings towards my own writings and always tend to delete the posts after a while. Despite the fact that I knew nobody’s gonna read them. lol.

And what have I found today? Some posts in My-diary.org page, Blurty (2 accounts), Bravejournal, Geocities page where I blogged manually (at that time I was into designing web page), and those were the only left to exist. The rest which I had probably in some place else like Blogspot and another in My-diary.org have been deleted completely. Har, har! It’s so funny now to read again what I wrote when I was, ahem.. younger and innocent :-) See.. crush things, studies, hostel blues, exams, ….. oh, memory!

I know this is almost stupid, but I have transferred all those posts from different sites into this WordPress and categorized them under Old blogs. Well, at least I want to have a few things I wrote years ago to stay exist here. Nevermind if they’re rubbish. Hahaha.

Edit: There’s one more old  journal (hardly updated also) I wrote about my relationship with Ado, from the days I was watching him secretly at the shop – to the time he confessed to me – to our early days together – to the good & bad days – to the so-called breakups – umm.. but that one will remain private I guess :P

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Let’s see if this can work (again)

14 January 2008 at 4:29 pm (Blogging, Jobhunting, Life)

OK here I am.. trying to update this silly so-called blog again. I promise I can never be good at this crap. Can’t understand myself why I bother writing this either, when I can be 1000000% sure that I’ll be deleting these posts again some time in the future – when I start reading em again and see that what I’ve written is either stupid or isn’t worth written in the first place. Again the question is, why do I bother writing? I don’t know. Hahaha. I am bored, maybe. Or when I think I just need to speak my heart (or mind) out loud. And it usually happens when something goes wrong or when I feel like s**t. I wish I could just write something meaningful. Oh dear, who cares what I write. Nobody’s gonna read this crap anyways.

I don’t want to write about Ado anymore. He really really REALLY doesn’t understand a girl. I just don’t know why I keep missing him. Sigh.

This animation course I’ve been following for 2 weeks.. is OK je. At least I can play with this cool iMac. Free internet. And I don’t need to stay home all day sleeping – which I love actually – but it only leaves me bored, sleepy and lonely. And when I feel such I’ll think of Ado. And I don’t want to spend hours a day thinking about him. Oh I must not write about him anymore. I must not.

Alright. I’m going to UIA this weekend. And interview in Shah Alam on Monday. I was excited at first, but I guess it’s going to be just a “few days of escape” from this routine. I’ll have to meet Ado anyway, whether or not he’s claimed to be busy cuz he has collected my project poster for me earlier and now I need to get it from him. OK I think I can’t stop writing about Ado, excuse me. I know sometimes I can get too emotional, I don’t like being one either, but why can’t he ever understand??

Let’s talk about happier things. The interview for example. Yes it’s going to be my 2nd interview. The first one was hmm.. pretty OK, but I forgot to bring CV (ugh) and I only scored 12 in the test when I was supposed to get 13 to have them hire me. Anyways. I don’t believe anyone in this world get hired by the very first interview either, no? But I want to believe that people are likely to be hired by the second interview :-) especially when they think they can’t wait to start getting busy with a (serious) job very soon (despite the fact that they’re actually too lazy to get up early and prefer staying home with food and huge bed and cars rather than having to rent maybe a small flat far away in KL and probably having to start using bus and LRT).

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Ilyani is insane: Episode 5

14 January 2008 at 3:50 pm (Blogging)

I have deleted all my posts from the beginning again.

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