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If you think I’m gonna write about Ado, then you’re so wrong :P

True, it’s well impossible to live the week without crying alone in bed, in the shower, in prayers. Though I know my tears will never change their decision, will never change the laws and the facts. It seemed like the world has just ended. But it hasn’t. The more I think about it, the more I’m glad it happened this way, however hurtful it seems to be, coz I myself couldn’t guess how it would end anyways.

Okay, so maybe a bit about Ado. It doesn’t matter now, the post-morterm sms and never ending explanations. They’re just like my tears, they will not change anything. Or at the very least, I hope they could make him understand. Or actually, make *us* understand and accept the fact that we just can’t be together. I hope soon I’ll know he’s going back to his country and be safe there. I really do. 

I’m taking a long break from work, the resignation is still undecided, as they advise me to get a rest first to gain my strength and motivation back. I am so thankful that people would care this much.

Maybe it’s too early to write about this, but my parents are bringing me to do Hajj in Makkah next month. Though it’s in between happy and sad, I’ll take this opportunity to get a peace of mind, and to purify myself from sins, hopefully. I have countless of unfinished business with God I have to settle.