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In few last posts I was talking about something big was going to happen soon.

Though I wasn’t really sure what that particular something big would be. Maybe your guess was marriage, wasn’t it? I did too guess so.

But it wasn’t my marriage with Ado.

It was my final goodbye to him.

It happened so drastic, I know, and it’s always been such thing in a few breakpoints in my life. I wasn’t that surprised it would happen again.

In those impossible hopes and optimists about marriage, I somehow realized that it could not happen so easy. But I was trying and pushing insanely coz I was too tired to think about it anymore. Why must love be this complicated? 

I don’t want to talk much about the event. The family, the meeting, the talks, the findings, the brainwash, the tears, the tears again, the tears again.

I love him and he loves me. He’s not perfect but he’s been wonderful enough and can always make me happy. But it doesn’t seem to be enough. At least they say so.

And I love my parents. I have to listen to them after all.

So I have to leave Ado. For good. Not just another breakup like we’ve had a few times before. It’s final and official, now that many people have been included. I will never get married when everyone is unhappy about us.

I lost my strength. I have to leave job. Leave KL.

I am now at home with my parents. I don’t want to think about anything else for the time being.

But I can’t help thinking if he’s going to be fine by himself. 

I truly wish he’ll go back to his family soon just as well.