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My uncle recommends me to apply for tutor position in UTHM, where he’s one of the lecturers there. As much as I can’t promise myself to be any good in teaching field (and somemore it’s university students! =_= so malu if the kids are smarter than I am) but he says the university would probably send the tutors to do masters overseas, and they have been doing it actually – and this bit somehow gets my attention. Coz if I stick to my current lousy job for good I’ll never ever go see the world.

So I sent him my CV though don’t have much hope and seriousness in it, he forwarded it to Head of Comp Eng Dept there, and the response quite surprised me. He said I’m qualified to apply for the position. I mean, are you sure you did look at my CGPA?? Hahaha.

I told Mama. She’s very keen to see me go there, even she’s happy with the fact that I may be sent to study masters far far away, which isn’t really of her, and somehow I can quite tell she hopes me to go far from KL. Far from Ado actually.

Oh come on, I haven’t yet sent the application. Haven’t even yet digged out my cert copies from the previous jobhunting days. Even if I send the application it doesn’t still mean that I can get a place there. And even if I get a place there it doesn’t still mean I will be sent overseas. Hmph.

I don’t know. To be honest I am not quite excited as I was when looking for job before.

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Things have been critical for Ado, I can help as much as I am able to. I know he’s strong enough to survive, but you can never tell the future. I want him to go back. But it doesn’t mean I don’t love him. I love him more than I can think.

Or am I not willing enough to sacrifice for love?

Maybe somehow it still depends on situation.

Coz life is not always easy as it used to be.