Which ilyani are you looking for?

30 May 2008 at 12:06 pm (Blogging)

Everytime I see the WordPress stat page, I can’t help but feel a little paranoid that there are people somewhere searching for ”ilyani” or “ilyani wordpress” or “ilyani blog” over the search engines. Which ilyani are you really looking for actually? There are maybe hundreds more ilyanis in Malaysia. It’s not me, is it? Then again if it’s not me, why do you (and you, you and you) keep coming ocassionally to read my unfunny miserable life stories but keep silent and never say something to make me feel better?? You are so unfriendly! :-(

Hmph. There I go again. I know I shouldn’t be bothered about my readers when I never expect anyone to read this. Heh. Still it’s annoying me, I just don’t know why. Anyways. I just don’t wish people who come across here happen to be the people at work!

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UIA revisited

28 May 2008 at 9:47 pm (Family, Life)

Hiya WordPress. I am in UIA right now. In my old hostel internet cafe to be exact. Hehe. What am I doing here? I am waiting for my laundry. Finally, I really have to come back all the way to the university to wash clothes! :P

Umm, actually, I was googling for self-service laundry nearby and there’s one that call themselves Yulek Self-service laundrette somewhere in Taman Cheras, and as I frequently go to Tesco Cheras I guessed I should try looking for this laundry. But the area turns out to be a very scarily old and crowded place and I didn’t find my luck finding the laundry. And yes, I already brought my full bag of dirty clothes!

And my second task today to do was to buy ticket to go back home this weekend. Mama wants me to be home as Ima has been back for school holiday plus we’re going to celebrate Dad’s birthday. And earlier, I was also fooled by the fake (?) internet ads, and this time was the bus ticket agent that claims to be nearby my area. I couldnt find the ticket counter! And now the laundry! What a disaster!

So I automatically came all the way to the good old Gombak area where I know that Greenwood has always had bus ticket counters, and UIA has always had laundries in the hostels! And yes, that’s what I am here now. So long story, eh?? Haha.

However, Friday tickets are all sold out. I called KTMB, trains are also sold out. I should have bought earlier. Good that Mama doesn’t mind.

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Mission accomplished: I’ve found the post office!

26 May 2008 at 12:06 pm (General)

Everyone, this is my local post office from now on. Sg Besi Post Office is actually located only about 5 minutes from my apartment. And to my surprise, Sg Besi is actually an old town, you can tell by the shophouses. The PO itself is an original post office building. I can’t remember if I have been living in such town in KL before. Not in PJ (during my college) or Gombak (UIA) obviously.

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Why do I get the feeling that I’ve been living in a drama??

26 May 2008 at 11:21 am (Life)

“….. what i did is just reaction on ur ever action nothing unthinkable and it’s only way in this case. u shd think 1st be4 u do wrong. not think only after punishment. Am still sorry if i hit u hard. btw am free on friday….. stay well”

STAY WELL?? FUCK OFF.

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A few things

24 May 2008 at 6:36 pm (Family, Life, Postcrossing, Whatever)

1) Mama’s sms

Last night I got the funniest sms from Mama. Or rather, I know it’s either Ipah or Ti who wrote it (Mama’s hopeless at sms-ing, she’d just call). And the translation should sound a bit like this:

“Mama got Liyana’s wedding invitation. Mama is praying that you’ll find your soulmate whom I’d like. As soon as Mama comes back from hajj Mama wants to have your wedding ceremony. That’s Mama’s dream.”

Heh. And I just replied,  “Who’s Liyana??”

“Che Lah’s niece”

“Then how that got anything to do with me??”

“Stupid.”

Hahahaha. Whatever. I still can’t understand, really. Why talking about my marriage in a sudden? I know Mama has been worried. I already told her about the last breakup but I didn’t tell her about the reunite, so I guess I don’t need to tell her about another breakup. Anyway this time is for good, I promise! :~)

2) MPH shopping!

Yesterday I somehow received the email reply from MPH for my enquiry about Croatian dictionary I had asked the other day, and she said there should be a few stocks in Midvalley MPH branch, along with the ISDN number, title and price. Hmm. Should buy or not? Well it’s CROATIAN language that I’m learning now, so it has nothing to do with anyone, no? Like Zerina said I never know when the language can be useful to me. And I can still visit Croatia anyhow, and meet Sandra. OMG I dunno how to tell her in my next letter.

So I went to Midvalley today with intention to survey price of a washing machine (yes, I’m needing one now), and to MPH. And I bought the dictionary! I also wanted to buy a book to give myself a good laugh. There’s so many to choose in woman fictions (silly fictions work for me), so I ended up wandering inside the store just looking. I bought a 2008 diary too (and it’s May now :P) cuz in January I was practically doing nothing at home so I didnt need an organizer. When the job started things were too hectic I didn’t have time to find one. And at Religious section rack I stumbled upon this book “Don’t be Sad” by Aaid Abdullah al-Qarni and I was like, OMG, how come the book knows what I feel?? And it’s religious kind of self help (?), while I am hardly a fan of such book, I decided to buy one. This could be my soul remedy, who knows? Later I went to indulge my eyes at Sony Center. Jusco is having crazy SALES now, I must avoid them! And come back with more money, haha! And the Midvalley visit was nicely ended with this yummy ice mango at the Food court.

Going shopping alone and driving alone isn’t too bad though. Not that I never did those before okay? Only I should do the tyre pumping by my own from now. By the way, I’ve been trying out different roadways to KL and other places from here, so I can get familiar some more. It works better if YOU are driving rather than having someone to drive for you, no? :-)

3) Postcrossing survival kit

Since the work PC blocks Postcrossing site and forum (why??), and I didn’t bring my PC to the apartment, the only way I can do is to tag and request address (it’s 10 addresses I can request now!! Ugh!) when I am back home. Got to print out the addresses, shop for some stamps, and postcards, and those are my Postcrossing Survival Kit to bring to KL! I can write and send postcards whenever I have time then, and post from here. But until today, I STILL DON’T KNOW WHERE THE POST OFFICE IS IN THIS AREA!! The Wikimap doesn’t help. I heard there’s a PO in Sg Besi but still can’t find it. I should ask help from fellow Postcrossers. Oh and I can only surf the forum when I have time to visit the internet cafe. Sigh.

4) Washing machine

I need to buy a washing machine. I cannot go and wash clothes in aunty’s house cuz it’s school holiday now and they balik kampung. And I didn’t find any luck so far in finding self service laundry here. I have been surveying washing machines in Midvalley’s Carrefour and a shop in Cheras (just to see price, I can go to nearby stores for real purchase). Someone said he bought a second hand one in Courts Mammoth Cheras, maybe I should go and see there as well.

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Some odd “At Work” survey

23 May 2008 at 6:19 pm (Whatever, Work)

Okay. This is self-made.

1) Have you ever cried at work?
= Yes. Today

2) What do you like the most about your job?
= When the clock hits 5.30. It’s time to go back :D

3) Do you like to gossip with your work colleague?
= No

4) What’s on your table right now?
= PC set, telephone, square note papers, 2 racks with documents and papers to be recycled, a notebook, a box of tissue, a pen, my staff card (the string broke so I can’t wear it now), a calendar, and Holland porcelain figure of “a couple” (from Jetske) – that I had intentionally left at someone’s house before – now I got it back.

5) And what is in your drawer?
= Stationaries: stapler, corrector, staples, pencil, some strawberry tea bags, some 3-in-1 Nescafe sachets, my handbag, a bag with prayers dress.

6) Do you think you’ll be staying in this company for long?
= No. After a couple of years I’ll surely get bored and want to find a new place. :P

7) Do you like your colleagues?
= Sort of.

8) Are you hungry?
= Yes.

9) What do you wish you were doing now?
= Sleeping.

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I must not cry. Let’s celebrate!

23 May 2008 at 1:53 pm (Life)

It was only yesterday I wrote in the very last post, that I loved him. It was only yesterday I decided to be with him again as far as I could, regardless the obstacles and uncertainty. It was only yesterday I was browsing MPH bookstore online to find a Croatian dictionary to purchase, so I can continue learning the language at ease.

In fact yesterday was still good. It happened at the end of yesterday to be exact. Even an hour before it, things were still good. We had pizza. We talked. We joked. He said he’d go to my area everyday as soon as he got himself a license. He said he wanted to see me whenever he had chances coz most of time he’s busy. Things were perfectly like usual. Until he suddenly morphed into a beast.

I have known Admir Sijercic for more than 3 years. Yes, I have known that he’s someone with a short temper. I never liked it but somehow have been getting used to it. But I did NOT know that he’s someone who could lose his temper enough to beat a woman.

I am still shocked.

I am relieved though. I have found out before it’s too late. I don’t want to be another victim of domestic physical abuse.

I can now say in perfect confidence that I NO LONGER LOVE HIM (yes, with big caps). I am happy with my decision. I didn’t listen to my parents, and this is a true lesson to a really bad and stubborn daughter. I have been playing around with my own promises to myself, to my parents, and to God. I have been cursed now, and I really deserved this. Please everyone, don’t be like me.

This is my final post I ever write about Ado. I’ll delete the blog category with his name soon, maybe with all the posts that I wrote about him as well, but it’ll take alot work. Anyway. No point to bother about the blog.

Ado is history. He’s no longer my boyfriend, no longer a lover, not even a friend now. I will try to forget him from now on. He is not worth to be remembered. I will avoid everything that can remind me of him again. I will get rid of all the CDs with the songs. I don’t want to go to Bosnia anymore. I don’t want to learn the language anymore. (I am sorry, Zerina). I will not respond to his sms/call/emails. I will not fall for him again. I will not be sorry for him for another time. There are worst things that can still be forgiven. But this one is definitely not.

I do not regret. I have got what I wanted. I had fun, I had love. But now he’s not the right guy for me.

I am not sad even though I did cry. I am the happiest girl in the planet at the moment. I am finally able to put this uncertain relationship into an end for good. I am the happiest because I finally have a reason to leave him.

Goodbye.

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Love update

22 May 2008 at 2:55 pm (Love)

It’s supposed to be, “Hvala za si doveslo me do ovdje”

Hmm, it wasn’t that which he corrected me when I said “Hvala.. za.. si poslao me” (in uncertainty). I can only recall Hvala …. do ovdje. You can put anything approppriate in between. That always happens in any spontaneous learning session, you can always forget what your teacher have said, very shortly. Or perhaps I didn’t pay attention too much :/ Or I should have written it down properly.

Yes. Ado came to visit me day before yesterday after work. He saw my place and my workplace, and we went to Backofen. I wanted to take pictures of yummy food we were having but forgot until the dishes got almost empty. Hahaha. Maybe next time. I had Rosmarine chicken and Austrian fried rice and he got spaghetti bolognese and home made burger, and we both had hot chocolate. So much a self indulgance after having been missing Backofen for 5 months! I suggested he move to live in Sri Hartamas so it’d be easy to go to this favorite restaurant of ours.

Anyway. Things are good with me and Ado lately. Part of me feels really happy. Another part feels really guilty. I did tell Mama I had already broken it off with him and would not go any further than as friends only.

But forget that for now. I am not actually really planning for the future yet. Not that I want to get married any soon. All that matters now we’re back together again. Though I haven’t confirmed with him, are we now dating again? Are you my boyfriend again? Or a part time lover? Or a friend-with-benefit? (now I think I know what they mean by “friends with benefit”).

1) Perhaps I don’t want to ask though I want to. I used to need confirmation before, but now I think I no longer do. Hahahaha. He is my bf when I love him and he isn’t when I hate him. And I can always go for a new guy in case someone turns up. I don’t need to ask for a breakup again if there’s actually nothing to break, am I right? So convenience that way right? Hahaha since when have I become a player?

2) Or perhaps not everything should be said verbally. Cos, I guess it’s been answered emotionally. If you know what I mean. And that should be enough for now :-)

I love Ado. I even haven’t said this to him for a very long time. But nevermind. At least I wrote it here many times already, heh. Actually, I even hate to acknowledge it myself now. Sigh. Cos it will only lead to hopes and expectations. And tendency to think about the future. And realization that everything is so complicated and unpromising. So forget it. Girls just wanna have fun. At least they like to say something like that.

Love him. Hate him. Yay what a boring girl I am. I realized every blog entry I write about Ado always sounds too teenage given the fact that I am turning 25 soon and having work colleagues who have married and in steady relationships. Hmm. Too teenage, too childish, so what? That’s all I can write here afterall. I cannot write anything too adult in a public blog, mind you ;-) Hehehe.

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Ubudiah mosque

19 May 2008 at 7:26 pm (General, Photos)

Masjid Ubudiah

I just got the pic of Ubudiah mosque I took with my mum’s phone during our visit to Kuala Kangsar, to show here. Obviously one of the most beautiful mosques in Malaysia, and as a Postcrosser I happen to have a special knowledge; that this is the mosque which picture has been made postcards more often than any other mosque in Malaysia. More than the National mosque or Putrajaya mosque. Though I was surprised when I really saw the building, I had always thought it looked bigger in postcards. And too bad we couldn’t get into the building at that time as it was Friday prayer time for men.

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New crush?

18 May 2008 at 8:22 pm (Whatever)

Last Friday this happy big girl asked me if I could send her to LRT station on my way back. She’s in a department on 2nd floor (I forgot what it is) but she always appears in everywhere. I can tell people think she’s a bit annoying but I guess she’s a nice colleague anyway. But I can’t remember her name now, sorry! So when she was in my car, and it was traffic jam like usual at MRR2 near Bandar Tasik Selatan, and I spot some familiar guy with red jacket on bike passing my car and moving towards within all the stucked cars.

And I asked her, “isn’t that guy from Iris too? Who’s he?”
“Oh.. Azmir”.
“which dept?”
“…xxx” (I can’t remember what she said. What a useless conversationist I am!)

I recalled back on the first day I was in Iris, during the lunch time and we were queuing at the cafetaria counter, this tall guy suddenly got my attention. I bet he gets everyone’s attention though with his unusual height for a Malay guy. I guess he’s 1.8m or more, like Ado. And he looks decent too.

And the girl continues, “so you’re watching him now eh?”
I replied, “No lah. Saja je. I just like seeing him. He’s tall.”

And the conversation somehow continued with her happily offering to help if I happen to like any guy in Iris. She can introduce them to me. Hehehehe. She seems to know everyone there, meh. She’s so friendly and she greets every single person she encounters. I guess she’s been in Iris for many years. Hmm, I couldnt help but to admit to her that I am looking for a new guy. Half joking though. But if half joking then it means half serious, no? Hahaha. Whatever. And suddenly I blurted out something about Ado, that I can’t seem to be sure if our relationship can survive even though we’re still going out. I think it’s weird though, me telling someone I hardly know about Ado. I haven’t even told anyone in my dept about him. Then again she’s the first person in Iris who became a passenger in my car, so no wonder I suddenly felt close to her. Plus, I guess she’s single. I mean not yet married. So we can be friends. Hahaha.

Anyways. Azmir? Why that name? Change z to d and it’s Ado’s name. Ugh. But at least he’s Malay. And got a steady job. And obviously has finished studies. And hopefully a nice guy.

So am I ready for a new crush?

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